fiqah.

I have set my priorities right and nothing can ever change my mind. I am firm of what I want and I won't let such things affect the way I am. You have every right to say that I am a changed person, no longer the Fiqah Salleh you knew, but you have no rights to stop me from being the way I am. So what if I have decided to put an end to US? I'll do what's best for me for I am only happy being myself. If I can't seek your understanding and co-operation, then what's the point? I know understanding & co-operation is a two way thing. But i need you to understand that I've not much time left before I graduate and now is such a crucial period. A period to do better, to do my best. You know my only aim now is to graduate with the grades that I want and to be able to further my studies in my desired polytechnic. I've done enough damage to myself. I've slacked enough for the past 1 1/2 years. Its time I buck up and fight for what's mine. If you can't keep up with me, I'm sorry. I got to leave you behind. I may sound selfish. In fact, I am being selfish. One fine day, you will understand the position I am in. Fighting for what is yours will be your main priority. Thank you for the wonderful times I had with you. Whatever has happened, no one can blame anyone. No one knows better than Allah s.w.t. If you keep saying you need me to change, you got to take a good look at yourself in the mirror too. If you keep saying I need to sit down and think, you too need to do the same. Just so you know, sarcasms doesn't lead to any good. It'll only lead to more damage. & to hate a person so bad, remember, they're humans too and so are you. For all you know, there are people out there hating you too.

I am preparing for the much anticipated day of next week. I hope Monday turns out well and all preparations done by Sunday. Nothing special to present, just something simple. I'll probably just bake a simple brownie or s'mores and present it with a birthday card. I don't know. Since my budget is a little tight, I won't be able to get him any presents.